My Twin God daughters.

Sleeping beauties Two Wks. Old.

Biggest Fear

Note to self:

closer..

Christmas.

Christmas was pretty good despite my mommy being sick she was throwing up and had a fever so i had to taker care of her when she got home from work so me an my sis took over  with cooking the food and what not and heating stuff up. me & my sis made cupcakes we had fun, listening to christmas music, sipping on moscato laughing and just being silly. my cousins and aunts came over it was just a chill day. Mickey was on my mind heavy yesterday because i just kept thinking about last christmas and how much fun we had but i felt his spirit all around me yesterday so i know he was there i just couldn't see him.  i finally called this guy that use to work with me at the hospital he gave his number to my mom to give to me like weeks ago but i never called him, last night i called to tell him Merry Christmas and he ended up stopping by meeting my sis and the rest of the cousins that were over and we ended up playing cards. it was good seeing him being he was so cool when i first met him and everytime i worked he was at work and his shop was like right next to where i was working so he would always come in and talk to me when we didn't have any customers and he helped me get through the wk.ends when we really didn't have any customers at all.. so it was nice. My dad stopped by and dropped me and my sis and our mom gift off and we gave him his, he kept saying he didn't want anything this yr. but come on it's christmas for crying out loud, the season of giving!! so he still got a gift and loved it! i just recieved money from mom & dad, my sis best friend gave me money. my titi bought me some boots that i abs. love!! i didn't get to see my P.I.C (partner in crime) last night to give her, her gift but we suppose to be going shopping today so i will give it to her then.  me & my sis have to go buy wrestling tickets for us and the lil brothers today. they love wrestling and tomorrow they will be here once again. we went in oct. it was pretty fun spending time with our lil man's so we decided that would be their Christmas Gift! overrall Christmas was good this yr. just missing my grandma, my God mother and Mickey but i'm sure they were in heaven watching us. i hope everyone had a great christmas!! I'm looking forward to twenty ten!!!

My Pretty Gals.

Shi.Shi & Searlait

Shi.Shi  having a convo. with  her lovely God Mommy, she was just smiling away today.

Searlait knocked out.

Searlait being a sleepy head <3

                                                 I went to see my hunnies today they are doing well.  I love my Gals.

since you been gone....

It's the one month Anniversary of your death, i miss you so much.

RIP Mickey.

10/24/83-11/22/09

iloveyou.

RIP Brittany Murphy

This yr. has been full of unexpected deaths... I'm so ready for the yr. to be done with already.. My heart Goes out to her family. i just want to sit and watch clueless all day, she was my favorite character in that movie. :-/ May you rest in peace Brittany!

The Twins are here!!

one of my close friends/ "sister" who i have known since i was in 6th grade finally had the twin girls last night! I finally have my God Daughter! I'm the God mother of one & my  twin sis is the God mother of the other one which i think is pretty sweet, she swears up and down we jinxed her because we are the only twins she know's lol Their names are Searlait & Shianne!! I love these two lil girls already.

Searlait & Shianne

Shi-Shi

Searlait

Still missing you....

Next Tuesday will mark the 1 month Anniversary of Mickey's death and i'm still missing him so much. it's really not a day that goes by that i don't think of him & replay the memories we had over & over in my head. i would give anything to have him back but i know thats not possible. The wound is so fresh still & it will take some getting use to. i just feel empty.  his dad always come by the house being him & my mom are best friends and have been since me & my sis was 1 yrs. old. i see so much of him in his father, they both were hilarious. it's never a dull moment when his dad is over here.  Christmas is one wk. away and being last christmas we spent it together & if he was alive we would be spending this one together as well so just the thought of it  & knowing what would of been makes me overwhelmed. i will try to enjoy my holiday the best way i can but i'm usually down around this time because my Grandma birthday is Christmas Eve and she died in 2003 and everysince i really stopped caring about the holiday but last yr. Mickey changed all that. but knowing i have a wonderful family i will get through it & they will left up my spirits.prayer has def. gotten me through it to this point, everyday is a struggle & i know it will get easier.   Damn i really miss them...

 R.I.P Bae & Grandma.

"sometimes i feel i need to get away"

This is my last wk. of classes for this semester... but i have a final next monday & a paper that's due that day as well in which i haven't started (yikes) i'm taking a break from studying right now so i decided to make a quick post, i have three finals on Wednesday, wish me luck because i seriously need it. I'm so tired of the cold weather even though we just recently got hit with it. i want to be on the beach soaking up some sun. I'm a winter baby and all but i'm just tired of being cold & plus i'm sick. I think i may have a respiratory infection which isn't good at all. my asthma is all out of whack right now & i'm constantly sleeping my voice is barely there & i dont really have an appetite, my ribs hurt when i breathe, my chest hurt. Basically i'm just all messed up. I need a date with my bed (I'm so tired).

ohhhhhh that's your dude, i thought i recognized him.LOL

Today while sitting in my room my BB (BlackBerry) vibrated and it was a txt. msg. from one of my ex-  boyfriends it read "don't call or txt me anymore" i'm staring at the msg. dying laughing it was pretty clear it wasn't him txting me..... it was a female. i showed my mom  since she was wondering why i  was laughing so damn hard & she was like "clearly thats a female, as much as he blow your phone up it aint him" The funny thing about it is i NEVER call or txt him.  if your looking in his phone correctly you will NOT see an incomming call from me let alone me initiating  a txt. convo. with this dude.. half of the time i ignore him. he barely gets a reply from txt. msg's  & when he does its short answers and i never answer his phone calls but he still calls damn near everyday.  he has been txting me since my bday trying to see me talking about "i gotta drop your bday card off" and just the other day he was txting me talking about "i miss you, can i just see my jazzy"  UHHH NOOOO!! he even gave his "brother" my number i guess to try to make me talk to him again none of that is going to work with me but his ass txted me one night i'm like wtf why is the dude giving out my number to people  SERIOUSLY (where they do that that at?) LMAO!  dudes crack me up, like playboy you slipping never leave your phone around... & instead of txting me she need to check him clearly he is in the wrong not me babygirl.. I'm not the one asking to see him, he is the least of my worries.. He the one sweating me.  Why do girls do that? check that n%$*a, not me!! LOL i thought i would share this with yall.

                                                             HAPPY MONDAY!!

Rihanna's New Tattoo..

(tatt'd backwards so she can read it in the mirror)

Her  new Tattoo reads "never a failure. always a lesson" a lot of people been throwing negative comments at her for this (ALREADY).. all i have to say is let her live!! it's HER body.. i like it, enough said : )

GOOD DAY EVERYONE!

The Story Behind My Tattoos

This was my first tattoo summer '08 it's a butterfly with my "Best Friend  Even after death"   first Initial  i got it because that boy means more to me than anything & the friendship we have is very important to me.. we just have an unbreakable bond this is truly undescribable.. being that he moved out of town after we graduated from 8th grade and we maintained our friendship over the yrs. after that means everything to me. he's one person who has NEVER done me wrong & i'm forever grateful to have him in my life. i wish all friendships i had was like this one.

This was my 2nd tattoo i got in the summer '08 (not the best pic of it, its a phone picture) on my Hip bone of my brothers & sister names with stars, i picked this placement because they are always by my side, if everyone else leaves i know they are there regradless..

This one was my 3rd. it's my Grandmother's Name. she passed away in 2003. This lady was thee best. she meant the world to me basically like a 2nd mother she spoiled me and my sis to death & lord know's i miss her.

This tattoo i have gotten soooooo much compliments on & "Praised" for but there are a few who wonder why i got this.. i did a post on him  11.4.09 which was a yr. since he was a elected & shared my story about what he means to me.... i got this done a day after he was elected. it's a inspirational & motivational tattoo for me to let me know if he could pull it off and do exactly what he wanted to do when so many people told him he wouldn't even get his foot in the door.. but where is he now? In the White house ;-) he's NOT perfect and neither am i but he's taking hold of the challenge and making things happen so why can't i?

Half way done...

Finished!!!

This is my Abs. Favorite.. i got this done this past summer, it's the Serenity prayer taken up basically my whole right forearm.. The Serenity prayer is something i say to myself everyday and helps me through a lot of things.. it's just something i can't really explain.. we have things we want but cant have so this prayer really just basically sums up life, dealing with any and everything i go through. A lot of people may criticize me about my tats... you either love them or you don't but no-matter what at the end of the day their on MY body not your's. so to each is own. ;-) they all mean something dear to my heart & that's the only thing that matters to me.. Whats the story behind your tattoos?

YOU

My 21st Birthday Wk.End

This had to be one of thee best Birthdays i have had in a while... it was much needed.. The actual day of my Birthday we went to bucking buffalo for happy hour my twin wanted me to ride the bull with her but i really didn't feel like getting on that shxt because i didn't want to fall and thats like the whole purpose of it lol.. after we left there we tried going to Choc. Bar for Martinis but it was a 15 min. wait so i wanted to leave lol we went TGIF Fridays downtown but it was super packed  so we walked back to the car and went to another TGIF Fridays and got in with no problem.. it was just me, my sis our mom and titi.. our waitress was hilarious, loved her!. but that night we ended up going to this 80's party at club opus the security guard was pissing me off when we first got there my sis best friend went first and she got let right in then my sis went and he staring at her ID and said "your ID expired on Dec. 4th." and being it was like 12, it was now the 5th so he bitching about a damn ID card so i go next and he like "your's expired too." I'm like uh yeah  clearly i know we are twins." and he let us in and i said Thanks and kept it moving lol.. he wanted to get some type of smart ass remark from us so we couldn't get in and my usually smart ass mouth just decided to be polite because i wanted to party!!!.. thats why i always kill em' with kindness ;-) my mom & titi ended up going out with us it was soooooooo much fun, i was dancing from the time i got in there until i left.. but the next day on sat.. i woke up at like 4 and got in the shower and i felt a lil hungover, i had a slight headache but nothing to major and my stomach was just killing me i knew i was going to end u throwing up because i just know my body.. so i ended up throwing up before i got out the bathroom then layed back down and had to throw up again lol... smdh.. my sis kept yelling at me to get dressed because our Get together at our dad's started at 7 and she wanted us to be there before people started arriving but i kept ignoring her ass LOL... to make a long story short i threw up like 7 times..  at Bucking buffalo i had two drinks, TGIF i had two drinks but i was perfectly fine i didn't have a buzz or anything.  i think it was because at the club my mom bought me two drinks i think it was vodka and lemonade and i had a vodka and cranberry from my cousin who was there, then my other cousin gave me some of her goose and whatever she had it mixed with and me, my titi and my cousin was taking shots of Goose & UV Vodka before we even left for the club.. i was mixing too much stuff together and that didn't sit well with me.. and i didn't really eat much that day so drinking on an empty stomach isn't good... but i pulled it together and made it to our dad's.. & i had a lil bit of a martini but i plan on  not drinking hard liquor anymore or atleast for a while, me & my friend jazz made a vow that we just sticking to wine... my aunt said "ohhhhh thats that grown women shxt." LOL. The get together yesterday was pretty fun, i got to see my cousin's , uncle's and my few close friends.. so i couldn't complain at all and it also made me realize who is REALLY there and always come through for me.. after it was over everybody came to my house and brought liquor and stuff.. i just had two glasses of Moscato and kept it like that while everybody else was throwing back some oh other ish.. we ended up playing Uno and just had a blast, laughing and making jokes and just talking..  so overall i had a good birthday wk.end.. I'm truly blessed to have made it this far.. A lot of people i know didn't even make it to this age so i'm forever grateful..

My God Baby Ay Ay & I

singing happy birthday to us.

listening to them sing happy birthday 1,000 different way. lol

we all we got.

live for the moment.

Me, my sis  & some of my closes friends.

Thee sis

me, my bro& my Friend Jazz

me & my TiTi

My God Son taken over my water bottle.

The fellas

Family First

My God Sis & I