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I'm thankful for...

2011-11-24T00:15:00.000-05:00

It's crazy how fast these months have been flying by... it's really scary. but everytime this time comes around it makes me sit down and really take in everything and realize just how grateful i really am.. so here is some things i'm thankful for:

I'm thankful for my mom & her health to be fine after going through what we went through with the whole cancer/tumor thing and just to be able to have such an amazing mother who does so much for me. she really goes above and beyond for me and my twin.

to have made it this far in my education, graduating from college and enrolling back in school to further my education and just being able to have the opportunities that i have in front of me.

My LDB*/blogger buddy Bri the bond i share with that girl is amazing and she is always there despite the distance so i love her to death.

So thankful for my lil brother these past couple of weeks been rough on him with being hospitalized and him being all the way in arizona with my step-mom while me and his other two siblings were here but God worked it out and he's better and at home with us!

My Relationship with God.

The handful of friends who i can always count on.

My health.

My Mr :)

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!

long over due:

2011-11-20T19:49:00.000-05:00

Hey yall!,
I haven't updated since i graduated college in may lol thats pretty bad.. But i must say I have been extremely busy with school yet again.. school is kicking my butt! but i guess being a biology major that's expected, the semester is almost over but we still have about a month left i'm just happy thanksgiving break is just about here!!! mines will begin tuesday after lab and i'm just so ready to relax and enjoy spending time with my family and not worry about studying for a test (which i'm doing right now).. but anyways everything has been going pretty good my way, just living life and keeping myself busy with school & planning some fun things for me and my twins birthday (Dec.4th) i can't believe will be turning 23!! i feel like i just turned 21.. time def. flies by but i'm excited i plan on celebrating that whole wk.end my bday falls on a sunday and of course i have school on monday so i will probably have all my fun on friday and sat. and sunday we will probably just do dinner with some close friends and family or something. well i just wanted to do a quick update i need to get back to studying & get ready to watch the AMA's with my sissy pooh. hope everyone is doing well. xoxo.

"raise your glass for the College Grads" - Beyonce

2011-05-27T00:09:00.000-04:00

so my fellow bloggers it has been a while since!!! i have been extremely busy with celebrating my Graduation!!!! it feels so good to say I'm a college Graduate! I have worked extremely hard to get to this point it's only the begining of yet another amazing journey but i'm ready =) people that follow me on twitter or are my friend on FB already know i graduated May 18th, 2011 At 7pm it was absolutely amazing i wasn't really excited until it was time for us to walk to our seats that when it hit me and me and my friends just kept saying "wow this is crazy" it was indeed a wonderful night after graduation we went to bar louie for food and drinks my close friends met me there to join and i had a GREAT time and i have seriously been celebrating since from going out to happy hour with friends, going out to clubs and cookouts so i'm def. pooped from all the celebrations. now that school is out and i'm finish with one chapter i'm just going to enjoy this summer as much as i possibly can then it's back to school in September for me i'm keeping it moving thats for sure i have soooooo much i want to accomplish so i can't stop now. i hope everyone is doing well i miss you all :)

2011-04-17T18:22:00.000-04:00

we're just friends & i'm slowly accepting that that's all we'll ever be.... I'm just happy that you're happy, even if its not with me.

update:

2011-04-13T12:37:00.000-04:00

I feel like i have abandon my blog :( my mind had just been else where lately.. these months have been flying by something serious i still can't believe it's the middle of april already! where did the time go? everything with me has been pretty good, school is going pretty amazing! being that i only have one class this semester it hasn't been much of a challenge even though it's a math class & anyone who knows me know i hate math! but i'm rolling with the punches & have passed all my test so i guess i'm doing something right.. Graduation is May 18th!! & my sis graduates May 21 with her masters!! i'm so proud of her as i call her "my lil teacher", i just can't believe its a month away which sounds so crazy to say, it came too fast! but i'm so ready for it so i can start my journey on to the next degree, i'm just ready to see my life unfold in front of me. i'm in a good place right now in my life & things can only go up from here :-) anywho this wk.end me, my twin & her best friend plan on driving to hersey park for the wk.end since i didn't really do much for my spring break and my twin is currently doing student teaching and next wk. the students have a wk. off so she wants to do something so i guess a lil mini get away will do us all some good. i hope everyone is doing well. i miss you guys. <3

so cute!

2011-03-22T15:43:00.000-04:00

Cute! from Allan Aranzaso on Vimeo.

Jessie J - Who You Are (Live @ Times Square)

2011-03-22T12:40:00.000-04:00

Lil wayne in Buffalo 2011

2011-03-21T12:38:00.000-04:00

I always loved lil wayne but i now have a new found respect for him after seeing in live on friday march 28th. <3

Portland Cello Project Covering Kanye West "All of the Lights"

2011-03-17T20:22:00.000-04:00

Warren G - Regulate ft. Nate Dogg

2011-03-16T16:25:00.000-04:00

"I will wait for you" by Official P4CM Poet JANETTE...IKZ

2011-03-12T15:20:00.000-05:00

anyone that know's me would know why this poem means so much to me.. it's literally the story of my life <3

feeling under the weather..

2011-03-12T11:35:00.000-05:00

i feel like complete crap... i have a cough that won't go away, sore throat & fever... i don't really have an appetite and i can't really sleep because i'm in too much pain so i pretty much have been up since 8pm yesterday =( i'm pretty sure i'm sick from going out tuesday night and not wearing a coat so i can't blame no-one but myself because i know i get sick way too easy.. hopefully i can't get rid of this by monday.. i'm currently counting down the hours until my mom gets home from work so she can take care of me and i can act like a big baby lol. i hope everyone else is doing better than me!

praying for Japan

2011-03-11T09:33:00.002-05:00

O God, our refuge and strength,

our help in times of trouble.

Have mercy on the lands where the earth has given way.

Have mercy on the lands where the weather has destroyed livelihoods.

Prosper those who rebuild houses,

…and strengthen those who rebuild hope

so that entire communities

may face the future without fear.

Amen

Thank Me Later Medley (Cover) - Drake

2011-03-11T08:52:00.000-05:00

Sean Garrett - Feel Love ft. J. Cole

2011-03-09T19:23:00.001-05:00

I love this song!

2011-03-08T00:22:00.000-05:00

"Souls that are so connected

Find one another’s love

Even in the darkness

Your energy’s enough

I don’t need my senses to know where you are

My love will lead the way

Even in the distance, you’re never far

Cause I know you, cause I know you

I know you by heart.
"

my new ink:

2011-03-07T17:50:00.000-05:00

Judson Levasheff's Journey...Krabbe Disease (Before & After)

2011-03-07T01:10:00.000-05:00

The heart

2011-03-07T00:35:00.000-05:00

Arteries and veins of the heart
No, it’s not a tree. even though it looks like it... it looks pretty cool.

The Student's Psalm

2011-03-03T13:44:00.002-05:00

The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not flunk;

He keepeth me from lying down when I should be studying.

He leadeth me beside the water cooler for a study break;

He restores my faith in study guides.

He leads me to better study habits

For my grades' sake.

Yea, tho' I walk through the valley of borderline grades,

I will not have a nervous breakdown;

For Thou art with me;

My prayers and my friends, they comfort me.

Thou givest me the answers in moments of blankness;

Thou anointest my head with understanding,

My test paper runneth over with questions I recognize.

Surely passing grades and flying colors shall follow me

All the days of examinations;

And I shall not have to dwell in this university

Forever!

Amen!

love

2011-02-13T00:26:00.000-05:00

wait for love...

2011-02-07T17:51:00.002-05:00

sometimes we fantasize our reality. sometimes we romanticize our relationships. as long as we dont rush for love. wait for love. because as you wait for love you should work on you, so that when its time for love you'll bring whats correct to the table and it'll be worth it. as you work on yourself, love will find you. wait for love, work on you. ♥

Update

2011-02-07T11:47:00.001-05:00

Unfortunately my steelers lost :( but i'm very happy for James D.Starks from the packers since he is from buffalo,ny and it was his first super bowl so i was extremely happy for him because he is one of buffalo's own so it was bitter sweet for me. i had a blast at the super bowl party we had everything was fun, drinks, food, laughs. this wk.end i didnt really do much friday i went to the mall to do some shopping with my mom and we went out to eat and got some drinks later that night i was going to go to a friend from school bday party but i changed my mind because i'm not a house party type of person, especially if its people there i don't know i'm more of a get together or small gathering type of person so i stayed home and did some studying and saturday i just went to God son bday party he turned 2 yrs. old but that night i actually ended up staying home again.. two nights in a row i guess i'm turning over a new leaf lol i really haven't had a desire to go out or anything like usually every wk.end i get up with some friends but idk i just been wanting to stay home and relax. it has been snowing non-stop last wk. everything was pretty much shut down and i didn't have school for a wk. we got hit with the storm that hit 30 states, it has been snowing places it usually never snows in which is crazy to me. us people in buffalo should be used to this weather but i can tell you i'm so sick of the snow i'm ready for summer to come knocking on my door like now! lol but anyways school is going well it seems like these months are flying by which is great because i'm ready to graduate and move on to the next one! i hope everyone is doing well. love yall!

Steelers Pump Up Video

2011-02-06T01:25:00.000-05:00

#SteelerNation

i want to....

2011-02-06T01:17:00.000-05:00

missing you..

2011-02-06T00:26:00.001-05:00

Missing someone isn't about how long it has been since you've seen them or the amount of time since you've talked. it's about that very moment when you find yourself doing something & wishing they were right there by your side.

2011-02-06T00:08:00.000-05:00

accept me Flaws & all

2011-02-01T01:25:00.002-05:00

Fuckin' Perfect

2011-01-29T00:12:00.000-05:00

Happy MLK Day!

2011-01-17T20:49:00.000-05:00

update on my life:

2011-01-16T22:12:00.000-05:00

Hey yall,
I barely blog anymore i need to get back in the habit of doing so though because it def. helps when you can just express yourself... but anywho so i have been on winter break for a month from school but starting on the 18th the spring semester begins i'm ready to know this semester out and graduate in may!!! I'm counting down already, i pulled through the semester with a 3.6 GPA & was oh so proud of myself because i knew i deserved it, it has been one hell of a journey but i'm glad it's finally over. ... I'm taking one class this semester which is a math class it's in the morning... now i'm just trying to figure out what i'm doing next semester (school wise) I just been praying and asking God to lead me and help me in this decision process, i think i know where i'm headed though but i don't wanna say just yet until everything is set in stone. but other than that nothing too crazy has been going on I'm currently looking for job and that process has been so annoying, i wasn't working for a short because i was going to two different school's at the same time, one in the morning and one at night but i'm finished with night school and got my certificate as a Certified EKG tech/ Cardiac monitor tech but all the jobs posting i seen for it either too far or the wrong times and conflict with my school schedule so i don't know what i'm going to do in that area i sort of just been playing the waiting game and TRYING to be patient and hopefully i will find something soon because everyone that know's me know i can't sit still i need to work, this sitting around aint cutting it at all and i'm trying to go to LA and north carolina soon so something has to give lol. i hope everyone else is doing well.

I need a vacay..

2011-01-16T21:57:00.002-05:00

10 things I've learned this wk.end

2011-01-03T01:05:00.001-05:00

1.Unless commitment is made, there are only promises and hopes… but no plans
2. life is short.
3.doing abs. nothing with my friends but sitting around and talking, laughing can make my night.
4. I can't control everything..
5.my life is falling into place quite nicely
6.people opinions of me doesn't really matter because at the end of the day i will do what makes Jasmine happy.
7.nothing comes easy
8.having positive people in your corner makes a huge difference.
9. Great things are in store for me in 2011
10.love life and keep reminding myself without struggle there is no progress..

silence can speak volumes

2011-01-02T19:41:00.000-05:00

I never realized how golden silence is. everyone knows when I have something to say I say it but recently I’ve just been sitting back and observing things. You see a lot. Also, sometimes talking relentlessly reveals yourself and puts you in unnecessary situations. I’ve always thought it was a plus if people never knew what you were thinking. I plan to keep it this way

2011-01-02T16:29:00.002-05:00

In the christmas spirit :)

2010-12-24T20:00:00.000-05:00

I hope everyone will have a great & memorable Christmas!! I'm thinking mines will be pretty amazing so far things have been great and its not even christmas yet i just been enjoying every bit of it and i can say for the first time in a while i'm actually having a pretty good holiday. Tomorrow i plan to go to my dad and step-mom house to drop off gifts to them and my lil brothers and come back home and spend time with my mom and twin sis and at 4pm me and my friend lawrence volunteering at the womens and childrens shelter and the buffalo city mission to help serve food to the less fortunate during this holiday season.

Happy Birthday Grandma!

2010-12-24T00:17:00.000-05:00

Today is not only Christmas Eve it's my Grandma's birthday! I miss her so much but i know she's watching over me & my family. I love you G-ma, I hope i'm making you proud after all everything i do is for YOU. Rest In Heaven <3

but live girl, have some fun girl we'll be fine

2010-12-20T00:10:00.000-05:00

This wk.end had to be one of the B.E.S.T i have had in a long time it has consisted with nothing but friends, drinking, get togethers, bars and laughs and memories. it was much needed becase i think i dseserved to celebrate the semester being over & me having one more class left until i get my associates so I'm very proud of myself so why not celebrate and let my hair down & i did just that this wk.end and enjoyed every minute of it. i still can't believe christmas is in 5 days its SCARY how fast time flies by but i'm so excited for the new year, i have changed so much in just one year and i'm ready to see what 2011 has in store for me i'm thinking nothing but greatness is headed my way :-)

I love her:

2010-12-16T00:58:00.000-05:00

2010-12-14T22:00:00.000-05:00

Not every girl wants to be in a relationship. some just want good company; a guy to vibe with, converse with, & laugh with. not in a rish; start off simple, & let the rest find itself. having someone to talk to and feeling comfortable around them is quite beautiful, and it's a good feeling.

Dear Love:

2010-12-12T23:16:00.002-05:00

''I’m not asking for perfect, I’m not asking you not to hurt me, and I’m not asking you to make me your whole world.

I don’t believe that it will always be uncomplicated. I’m okay with a little chaos.

All I’m asking for is you to care enough to think about me and prove that it’s all worth it.

''

The power lies within the one who cares the less

2010-12-10T01:21:00.000-05:00

The Man's Guide To Love #175 from themansguidetolove on Vimeo.

10 things I've learned this wk.end

2010-12-05T20:31:00.000-05:00

1. some of the people i always look out for and always there for wasnt there for me this wk.end so i let go of some people and it feels so good..

2. it's ok to be weak sometimes (my big sister LaLa taught me that)

3. my family will go above and beyond for me!

4. going out to clubs is not my thing anymore.

5. letting God take care of certain things in your life has to be one of the hardest but smartest things you could ever do.

6. spending time with family always make me feel better.

7. The fall semester is almost over!!!!

8. working hard pays off.

9. taking a break away from my phone and putting it on silent is so peaceful and relaxing.

10. i rather stay snuggled in my bed with hot tea and a good movie then going anywhere.

R.I.P Justin Boykin

2010-11-26T16:14:00.000-05:00

Today i woke up to some news i wasn't prepared for.... it still hasn't hit me that your gone but i know it will hit me soon... i'm going to miss you so much but i know your in a better place. all i have now is these memories of us in high school in earth science and you always putting a smile on my face & making me laugh even when i didn't feel well & you always touching my face & saying "your skin is so perfect" and me moving away and saying "it won't be if you keep touching it" lol i love you bro forever & always.

ps: your kids are going to miss you i just hope you watch over them baby boy!

everything happens for a reason

2010-11-20T21:29:00.000-05:00

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

-Marilyn Monroe

Sagittarius

2010-11-15T14:16:00.000-05:00

SAGITTARIUS:
Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found.. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. A loner most of the time. Loses patience easily and will not take crap. If in a bad mood stay FAR away. Gets offended easily and remembers the offense forever. Loves deeply but at times will not show it, feels it is a sign of weakness. Has many fears but will not show it. VERY private person. Defends loved ones with all their abilities. Can be childish often. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in bed..!!! Not the kind of person you want to mess with- you might end up crying.

10 Things I've learned this wk.end

2010-11-15T00:35:00.000-05:00

1. admitting you were wrong in a situation & putting your pride aside and apologizing will make you feel so much better. i feel like i can breathe now :)
2. I have some amazing friends my crew is pretty small but i wouldn't trade em' for the world even sometimes i may complain. (I'm working on not complaining as much) ;-)
3. me & my twin sis 22nd bday is in 19 days!
4. I need to start going to church more.
5. I learned if someone reallywants to hang out with you they will make it happen no matter how busy they may be.
6. I can do ALL things will God on my side.
7. Being positive with bring positive things in your life.
8. I miss blogging :(
9. the semester is almost over!!!
10. my little brother's make me proud

Hebrews 10:36

2010-11-14T13:43:00.000-05:00

"You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised."

my life through a photo:

2010-11-11T22:50:00.002-05:00

For Bri

2010-10-21T13:35:00.003-04:00

I have posted this on my love Bri's FB page but i thought i should post it on here as well. i never thought i would gain some amazing friendships just because i started a blog but i'm very grateful i have because some of yall have been there through thee worse & Briana is one those people! we both going through a situation right now and we are sort of leaning on each other for support and strength even though we live miles and miles apart we seem to still keep each other sane. keep your head up Bri I Love You!

yours truly!

2010-10-07T19:16:00.000-04:00

Thank yall to those who have been praying for my mom i greatly appreciate it <3

fuck cancer!

2010-10-04T14:08:00.000-04:00

so last wk. my mom went to get a mamogram done and a few days after she got a call from her doctor and the hospital saying they need her to come back because they found some "findings". today she went and she said they were taking a long time then usual and they told her she needed to get a ultra sound and they need to a biospy to see whats going on because she possibly may have breast cancer... i have so many thoughts going on my head but i'm trying to remain positive and have faith.. please say a prayer for my mom.. thanks in advance! love yall.

Save the boobies!

2010-10-03T16:33:00.000-04:00

I'll do anything for you

2010-09-28T15:39:00.002-04:00

"Thanks for letting me bloom, for your wisdom, for your womb

For the roof over my head, for my shoes, for my bed

For the most important lesson in life was when you said

“Strive for what you believe in, set goals and you can achieve them”

Thanks for the days you kept me breathing when my asthma was bad

And my chest was wheezing." - Jay-Z

mini update

2010-09-18T18:07:00.000-04:00

I know i barely be on here (please forgive me) i just been oh so busy with school and work and trying to have a life outside of that but life is good still been having my positive attitude which has been helping me through alot and with everyday things. I have a lot in store for me in these next couple of months and i'm beyond excited! ( Just pray for me yall) anyways i suppose to be getting dressed for the comedy show tonight, kevin hart is in town and me and my twin sis are going to see him since i bought tickets for us I hope it's a good show i think he is hilarious but sometimes you get disappointed me you see them in a show so i'm just keeping my fingers crossed that it turns out to be a good show then tonight i'm spedning time with some of my closest friends at my house to have some drinks and just hang out & my best friend who lives in north carolina is in town so i'm happy i get to see him as well. i hope everyone enjoys their wk.end i know i will! love yall muahz!

Hello September

2010-09-01T15:18:00.000-04:00

These months seems to just be flying by which is crazy!!!! so the fall semester has started for me so far so good, my classes seem interesting so hopefully all goes well i'm sure they will. nothing really has been going on i just have a cold that i'm trying to get over just my type of luck to get sick right when school starts my throat was hurting but it stopped hurting yesterday but i'm still coughing and i have a runny nose and body aches so i'm trying to get rid of this i had a fever for three days straight but i seem to have gotten that under control (thank God) but life is good despite me being sick. i hope everyone is having a wonderful semester so far! ( Good Luck)

for kicks & giggles

2010-09-01T15:05:00.001-04:00

LMAO.

So other's may live

2010-08-24T00:00:00.001-04:00

11/7/74 - 8/24/09

"When I am called to duty, God, whenever flames may rage;

Give me strength to save some life, whatever be its age.

Help me embrace a little child before it is too late

Or save an older person from the horror of that fate.

Enable me to be alert and hear the weakest shout,

And quickly and efficiently to put the fire out.

I want to fill my calling and to give the best in me,

To guard my every neighbor and protect his property.

And if, according to my fate, I am to lose my life;

Please bless with your protecting hand

my children and my wife."

he risked his life "so other's may live"

we miss you uncle "simeon" <3

* Today makes it a yr. since the tragic death of fire fighter Jon & Chip may you both rest in heaven. *

Hola!

2010-08-21T15:42:00.000-04:00

Hey my lovely ladies!! I'm laying around being a bum, listening to music so i decided to do a lil upate on my life and what not... everything is basically going pretty amazing for me and i just basically been happy about everything and just trying to be positive about life being life is way to short to be anything but Happy, we all have our moments or when we want to just say "Fxck it" but that really doesn't help any situation.. so smile & be happy people!! :) me & the love are doing fantastico he is def. a breathe of fresh air in my life, love, love, love that man! he is currently out of town with his family i really wanted to go but i have work to tend to but he kept txting me like " babe we have to come here and stay for a wk." so i guess that means he is having the time of his life in washington D.C but he deserves to get away all he does is work, work & more work..school starts back up for me on the 30th.. not so exciting but whatever it's grind time so let's go!! this summer has flew by but it was a pretty good summer for me so i won't even begin to complain, i hope everyone is enjoying the rest of the summer because it's def. almost to an end.

Enjoy your weekend lovies!!

8 Shot 4 Dead

2010-08-15T00:18:00.000-04:00

BUFFALO, NY -- Four people were killed and fourmore were injured in a shooting outside a restaurant in downtown Buffalo early Saturday, according to police.

A wedding reception was taking place at the City Grill when shots rang out around 2:30 a.m., sparking a panic.

The dead included two men, ages 26 and 30, and two women, who were 27 and 32 years old, Richards said.

Three were pronounced dead at the scene and another died at the hospital.

The 30-year-old man was in town from Texas for an anniversary celebration scheduled for later Saturday, Richards said. His wife was not among those struck by gunfire. The couple had ties to Buffalo, authorities said.

Raymond Wilhite said his 32-year-old daughter, Tiffany Wilhite, was among those killed. He called the shootings "senseless, random killing."

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The wounded were all men.

One partygoer who was inside the bar at the time told the Associated Press, "A lot of people were real upset, just trying to get out of the way. Nobody knew where anything was coming from. Everyone was in a panic."

Police haven't commented about motive.

Chief of Detectives Dennis Richards said management had chosen to close down and was asking everyone to leave the restaurant, and that there were "verbal things going on."

People were leaving when the shooting happened.

Investigators did not know how many shooters there were.

Late Saturday morning, police arrested one man at a Buffalo house, but they wouldn't say if it was related to the shootings.

** This is why i rarely go out to these clubs here too much b.s and me and my twin was planning to go out next wk.end (HELL NAW not anymore) i want my life, my prayers go out to the victims and the families. i knew one of the guys who was shot he still in the hospital i'm not sure of his condition but praying God is watching over him and the rest of them that are hospitalized.

Hello August!

2010-08-07T13:42:00.000-04:00

I can't believe it's August!!! this summer has flew by so fast! can't complain though i enjoyed it nights with my closest friends had to be thee best & random get togethers we decided to have at the last min. spending time with my Best Friend when he came into twon topped my summer off but i can say i'm ready to enjoy my last semester at my current college and handle some other things i don't want to say what they are yet but great things are happening in my life :) i'm oh so focused right now! this is my last wk.end "partying" last night i went to the casino with my mom at like 1am and was there until about 3am my "brother" ended up coming up there and it was the most hilarious/fun night me and my mom both won money so it was pretty cool! tonight we are having a BBQ for my aunt bday and having drinks or whatever and later tonight i suppose to go out with an old friend for his bday and celebrate with him but i'm just trying to enjoy the rest of my semester i start school back on the 30th & my schedule isn't bad at all i get out at 12:50 on M.W.F so it should be a breeze. I hope everyone is doing well & enjoying their wk.end Muahz! Peace & love.

Blackberry lovin'

2010-08-01T12:15:00.000-04:00

New BBM PIN: 321C7691

Add me :)

Vegas in December?

2010-07-16T10:49:00.000-04:00

I have been thinking about going to vegas for my 22nd birthday since i didn't make it there for my 21st so i think that shall be the plan i ran things by my twin sis being we share our bday and she said it's sound good to her so i just been searching for deals, flights and hotels so i can book everything in advance! this will just be one thing to scratch off my things to do list in my life! after all you only live once! ;-)

Happy Friday Blog sisters!

update

2010-07-12T12:57:00.000-04:00

Hello my blog sisters!! i haven't been on here in a short my laptop charger has a shortage in it so it barely works for me and i don't really like using my house computer so i try to get on when i can... lets see, i didn't get to tell yall about my fourth off july it had to be one of the best i have had in a while we had a family BBQ with our family and friends it was an overall good time of course the boyfriend came over and he already met my mom and sis from the beginning when we started talking but he got to meet my aunts, cousins and God sis they all loved him! letter that night i went to see the fireworks with him , his mom and lil sister it was ridiculously too many people at riverside park that all the cars in the street that were driving realized they couldnt get through so everyone just stopped wherever they were at turned they cars off and got out or just sat in the car to watch the fireworks LOL but it was great none the less. i just been trying to make this summer a summer to remember being its back to Grinding at school for my last semester at the college i'm currently at and then getting ready to go to a new school so i need to have as much fun as possible.. i can say i have a serious tan from being outside in this Hot weather, nfortunately yesterday i had an asthma attack while at the Puetrorican festival and i didn't have my inhaler on me (smdh) not being able to breathe is by far the worse feeling in the world i thought i was going to end up passing out and getting rushed to the hospital because it was that bad but i made it home in time to take my nebulizer treatment and it helped i definetly learned my lesson to NOT ever leave out the house without it ever again. but life is going pretty good right now, everything is falling in place & my life is coming together quite nicely =) I'm Blessed.

Happy Monday!

2010-07-11T23:07:00.002-04:00

Recap of this wk.end

2010-06-28T00:46:00.000-04:00

so.... nothing went as planned for me this wk.end but sometimes thats just how life works right?. Friday i went to work as usual and after i went to one of my close friends mother birthday party at this bar which turned out to be a great night and nothing but laughs and some great memories. sat. i woke up waaaayyyy to early for my liking being i'm not a morning person by any means to go to one of my best friend's basketball game at the gus smacker, his game was at 8:30 am and the boyfriends lil sis game was at 12 so i was up there for a while but i finally met his mother she was already the sweetest to me when i would be on the phone with him or when he was with me and she called but that lady is absolutely a-m-a-z-i-n-g and her mand my mom hit it off and were talking like they have been best friends for years lol. later that day i ended up coming home after spending half of my day watching basketball games and seeing old faces from high school & catching up with a few people the boyfriend stopped by over here and we were just watching t.v and talking when he got a phone call from his mom saying his grandmother just got rushed to the hospital so he asked me if i wanted to come or just wait until he comes back i ended up staying but as soon as he left i kept saying "damn i should of went" and he txted me and said it wasn't looking so good so i said F it i'm going to the hospital being i should of went in the first place but i had sweats on and just was in my laid back mood but something kept telling me i needed to be there with him so i ended up going up there he was in the back with his Grandma and i was in the waiting room with his mother, lil sis and uncle. i ended up meeting his grandfather that night as well while at the hospital it kind of made me sad as hell being up there because i kept thinking about my grandmother who passed away in 2003 so i felt their pain. it was really stressing him out because his grandfather has cancer and they were told he prob. wont be alive for much longer so i cant imagine whats going on in his head. but she ended up having pneumonia and was having a pretty tough time breathing to a point she stop breathing but they eventually got everything under control. his grandmother said "i like you already, you came up here for support thats what i'm talking about." lol we were up there for quite a while his lil sis got sleepy and was crying so much so we told her she could lay down in the car and she ended up falling asleep and we stayed in the waiting room waiting for his Grandmother to get her room so we just went outside to talk and you can tell it meant the world to him that i was there, i just knew how much i wish somebody could of been there for me during that difficult time with my grandmother got rushed to the hospsital so that's prob. why i felt i just HAD to be there being i know too well what it feels like. so we didn't get to do anything what we had planned but we still ended up together.. i'm just glad she is doing better now. & the family is like in love with me now. =) i hope everyone else wk.end was a great one..

Happy Monday!

held at gunpoint..

2010-06-25T15:50:00.001-04:00

so last night the BF was held at gunpoint last night and was pretty shaken up as you can imagine.. someone came up to his car window and he said his life flashed before his eyes and all he could think about was his family and me.. this is one crazy world we live in the same thing happen to me and my sis friend when he was driving around with his friend. I'm just happy he's ok because the worse could of happened. Thank you God for protecting him... we are forever grateful..

Happy Friday Lovely Ladies!

2010-06-23T00:30:00.000-04:00

The past wk. has been a lil hectic my God Daughter & her twin sis ( which is my twin sis God Daughter) both got hospitalized for asthma so i called off work and headed to the hospital to checkup on my lovely ladies. my sis God daughter was sicker than mines she kept choking and she had an IV but they both were wheezing pretty badly so the nurses had to suction them out by putting a big ~~ass~~ tube up there nose which you can imagine they didn't like that at all. they were also in separate rooms but next door to each other which i thought was crazy because she had to keep going from one room to the other but i guess they did that in case something else was wrong and they didn't want the other one to catch it but they were there for three days and got discharge and no are doing pretty good (Thank God) . me & the BF spent time together the past wk.end we decided to just stay in and watch movies all day which was fine with both of us but this wk.end we plan on going to see Toy Story 3 (yes we are some big ~~Ass~~ kids) lol and i have been dying to go to the zoo so he said he will take me!! we have been spending our wk.ends together because thats our only day's off since we both work M-F and when he gets off work i'm going to work so it's a lil difficult but we make the best of it when we do see each other it's time well spent. his mom asked me to come with them to Niagara falls next month and stay for three days i believe for that Wednesday, Thursday and Friday but i don't know if my boss will go for that he be tripping when i tell him i can't come in on a certain day so i can just imagine what he will say about three days.. sigh.. but i want to go so he just gonna have to be pissy about it! lol it will be nice to just get away for a few days i seriously need it!

L I F E as of now.

2010-06-17T02:41:00.000-04:00

Hey loves!! just felt like doing a quick little update it's late as ever and i know i should be sleeping being i have a hair appointment at 11am smdh. but anywho things have been going absolutely great! me & the boyfriend are doing G R E A T! that man surprises me everyday so this journey has been a great one so far so obviously i have been nothing but smiles we actually had a date on last sunday which was perfect we went to the Marina and just sat and talked about everything, went to dinner and a movie and it was just a great day overall i suppose to be meeting his mom and lil sis soon his mom was actually hoping to meet me last sunday but she had to go to work and he fell asleep so he couldn't come get me early but she already adores me lol =). oh today he did thee cutest thing he txted my phone and asked me if my mom was going to be at home i'm like yeah but i didn't ask him why i thought he was just going to stop by and say hi to her or whatever but it turned out he brought me some roses and thee sweetest card while i was at work when i walked in the house after work it was sitting on the table and i was like "OMG I'm about to cry." lol and i just called him and thanked him, that boy is too sweet to me.. but moving on work is work i can't stand that place half of the time so i'm still searching for a new job but until then i'm stuck where i'm at... i'm just trying to enjoy my summer, enjoying the spending time with the BF , BBQ's, kickbacks, bowling nights, happy hours on friday's with my co-workers, sleeping in on wk.ends and laughing until my stomach hurts. life is great!

i hope you lovely ladies enjoy the rest of your wk! it's almost friday!

Watch me!

2010-06-15T13:37:00.002-04:00

Drake

2010-06-15T00:26:00.000-04:00

Drake's "Thank me later "album is in stores today June 15th his album got leaked a few wks. ago but i still plan on buying it to support his craft.

Pre-nup

2010-06-15T00:17:00.002-04:00

Be Bold

2010-06-12T16:32:00.000-04:00

—YOUR BOY SIDE—-

You love hoodies.

You love jeans.

Dogs are better than cats.

It’s hilarious when people get hurt.

Shopping is torture.

Sad movies suck.

You own a car racing game.

You played with Hot Wheels cars as a kid.

At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.

You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.

You have watched sports on TV.

Gory movies are cool.

You go to your dad for advice.

You own like a trillion baseball caps.

You used to collect hockey cards.

Baggy sweats are cool to wear.

It’s kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.

Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors or all.

You love to go crazy and not care what people think.

Sports are fun.

You talk with food in your mouth.

You sleep with your socks on at night.

You have fished at least once.

—-YOUR GIRL SIDE—-

You love to shop.

You wear eyeliner.

You wear the color pink.

You go to your mom to talk.

You consider cheerleading a sport.

You hate wearing the color black.

You like going to the mall.

You like getting manicures and/or pedicures .

You like wearing jewelry.

You cried watching The Notebook.

Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.

Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.

You don’t like the movie Star Wars.

You are/were in gymnastics.

It takes you at least one hour to shower, get dressed, and make-up.

You smile a lot more than you should.

You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.

You care about what you look like.

You like wearing dresses when you can.

You like wearing high heel shoes.

You used to play with dolls as little kid.

You like putting make-up on others.

You like being the star of everything.

Pink is one of your favorite colors.

Appearance •

I am shorter than 5’2

I have many scars.

I tan/burn easily

I wish my hair was a different colour.

I have friends who have never seen my natural hair colour.

I have a tattoo.

I am self-conscious about my appearance.

I’ve had/have braces.

I’ve been told I’m attractive by a complete stranger.

I have more than two piercings.

I have / had piercings in places besides my ears.

• Embarrassment •

I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a spoken conversation.

Disney movies still make me cry.

I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.

I’ve glued my hand to something.

I’ve laughed ’til some kind of beverage came out of my nose.

I’ve had my pants rip in public.

• Health •

I’ve gotten stitches.

I’ve had my appendix removed.

I’ve sat in a doctor’s office with a friend.

I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.

I’ve had serious surgery.

I’ve had chicken pox.

• Experiences •

I’ve gotten lost in my city.

I’ve seen a shooting star.

I’ve wished on a shooting star.

I’ve seen a meteor shower.

I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.

I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.

I’ve kicked a guy where it hurts.

I’v been to a casino.

I’ve been skydiving.

I’ve gone skinny-dipping.

I’ve drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.

I’ve crashed/rolled a car.

I’ve been skiing.

I’ve been in a musical.

I’ve caught a snowflake or snow on my tongue.

I’ve seen the Northern Lights.

I’ve sat on a rooftop at night.

I’ve played a prank on someone.

I’ve ridden in a taxi.

I’ve seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.

I’ve eaten Sushi.

I’ve been snowboarding.

• Relationships •

I’m single.

I’m in a relationship.

I’m engaged.

I’m married.

I miss someone right now.

I’ve gotten divorced.

I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.

I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.

• Honesty / Crime •

I’ve done something I promised someone else I wouldn’t.

I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.

I’ve snuck out.

I’ve lied to my parents about where I am .

I’ve cheated while playing a game.

I’ve ran a red light

I’ve been in a fist fight.

I’ve been arrested.

• Death and Suicide •

I’m afraid of dying.

I hate funerals.

I’ve seen someone / something dying.

Someone close to me has attempted / committed suicide.

You have planned your own suicide.

I’ve written a eulogy for myself.

• Materialism •

I own over 5 rap CD’s.

I have an unhealthy obsession with anime / manga.

I own designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.

I own something from Pac Sun.

I own something from The Gap.

I own something I got on E-Bay.

I own something from Abercrombie.

• Random •

I can sing well.

Stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.

Open up to others easily.

I watch the news.

I don’t kill bugs.

I sing in the shower.

I am a morning person.

I paid for my cell phone ring tone.

I am a sports fanatic.

I twirl my hair.

I care about grammar.

I have “?”’s in my screen name.

I love spam.

I’ve copied more than 30 CD’s in a day.

I bake well.

My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red, blue, black, purple, or orange

I would wear pajamas to school.

I like Martha Stewart.

I know how to shoot a gun.

I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.

I laugh at my own jokes

I eat fast food weekly.

I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.

I can’t sleep if there is a spider in the room.

I am really ticklish.

I like white chocolate.

I bite my nails.

I’m good at remembering faces.

I’m good at remembering names.

I’m good at remembering dates.

I honestly have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

Jaden & Willow Smith

2010-06-10T15:59:00.000-04:00

Creating something better

2010-06-10T15:54:00.000-04:00

2010-06-10T15:49:00.001-04:00

This could be the start of something beautiful..

2010-06-10T15:45:00.000-04:00

I told you guys i met someone well i knew him since H.S but we have been talking and things are going pretty good which i still can't believe but he is absolutely A-M-A-Z-I-N-G it's kind of scary how good things have been going but i prayed about it and of course thanked God for blessing me with something so amazing that i thought i would never get or atleast no time soon.. but it happened so unexpectedly He's something i always prayed for so i'm prepared for this wonderful journey i know it won't be easy as nothing worth having comes easy.. i have stopped looking and out of no where here he comes! but needless to say I'm genuinely happy right now and taking things slow and one day at a time... Thanks to my sis LaLa who i love soooooo much ( i hope she knows that) who always tell me to just wait and he was out there somewhere. you were right! =)

Happy 34th Birthday to my Idol!

2010-06-07T23:48:00.001-04:00

Everyday a star is born!!

quickie..

2010-06-07T01:52:00.000-04:00

I have been trying to enjoy my break from school the weather has been abs. gorgeous lately but today it has been raining and cold so hopefully it gets back to normal soon..
I met someone =) so far so good i haven't been looking what so ever this one def. found me so i'm taking things one day at a time (he went to school with me but we never really talked in H.S)..
I have been enjoying spending time with my friends & new friends..
still haven't gotten my tattoo that i have been dying over but i plan on getting it soon i want a few more and i'm officially done with tats..
i seriously need to go summer shopping in the next couple wks.
I'm planning a road trip to ATL with my mom sis, titi, mickeys father and brother.
still looking for a different Job..

Life is What you make it so i'm trying to live as if today is my last...

This girl is a True Laker Fan!

2010-06-06T18:36:00.002-04:00

2010-06-06T18:14:00.002-04:00

walk by faith...

2010-06-06T18:10:00.001-04:00

killer Cramps

2010-06-06T17:52:00.002-04:00

Cramps are kicking my ass as always =/

everything hurt and nothing was beautiful...

2010-05-30T17:18:00.000-04:00

Bucket List.

2010-05-25T01:12:00.000-04:00

Fall in love
Jump out an airplane
jet ski
get married
visit mickeys grave site in springfield ohio
ride in a hot air ballon
go skinny dipping
road trip across the world
Adopt a child
Graduate from college
volunteer at a soup kitchen
buy my mom a house
go to vegas with my best friend
meet LaLa, her son and soon to be husband
meet Obama
meet Kanye West
run in a race for cancer, aids.
go to disney world
visit new orleans
put my feet in the ocean
buy my OWN car with MY own money,
Have children
ride my bike cross country
write a letter to everyone i love
name a star
go out of town and don't tell anyone and turn my phone off and be in "missing mode"

*This is only half of it i plan on adding a lot more to the list...

when i was younger...

2010-05-23T23:31:00.000-04:00

I always said i wanted a corey & topanga love.....

No means No

2010-05-23T23:30:00.002-04:00

L.O.V.E

2010-05-23T22:37:00.001-04:00

where is winter?

2010-05-19T15:36:00.000-04:00

I have been oh so busy! the semester is OVER!!!! it went by pretty fast if i must say myself... i don't know any of my grades yet, i'm praying i passed everything (fingers crossed). as i previously stated i have three more courses until i get my associates but of course being a full time student i needed another class or i would have to pay for the tuition myself (GRRRRRR) so i'm taking four classes come sept. even though i actually only need the three then i will be finished in dec.. kind of upset i have to wait until next may to actually walk across the stage but whatever i'm learning to be patient. i will be applying to a new school around the time my last semester start so i can start back up in jan. for surgicial tech which is a two year program i'm ready for that journey to begin! but anywho i just been working and trying to have a social life in between and i'm currently looking for a 2nd job for the summer so i can stack some money up, i need a Car like A.S.A.P!!! i do too much not to have one but hard work pays off so i'm not worried about it, when God want's me to have one i will :-) but i have been enjoying life, an important friendship have reconciled recently which i'm happy about and i have gotten closer to the circle of friends i do have so i'm all smiles! I'm just looking forward to this summer i think it will be pretty amazing with a few surprises! i hope everyone is doing well i miss my Blog Fam(ily)!

we all need to realize.....

2010-04-27T00:42:00.002-04:00

Ramblings of my life.

2010-04-19T01:19:00.000-04:00

hello dolls! i should be sleeping right now but my silly behind decided to take a nap at 9pm and now i'm wide awake doing homework and reviewing notes for my classes in the AM.. (bad idea) but anywho i have been super busy as always just trying to get on top of this school sh-t.. I'm three classes away from my Associates Degree so i'm happy about that then it's back to school for me after that.. just trying to stay on top of things.. school is beyond stressful with work on top of that, so i'm trying tokeep my head above water. this wk.end was fun!! it was indeed much needed. friday night after work i came home and waited for my sis and her best friend to come get me so we could go out we ended up going on the strip bar hopped and just enjoyed each others company, dancing and laughing it was a great night! sat. i went downtown to watch the Sabres playoff game unfortunately they lost but they played their heart out but all in all it was a Great game after that me and mom dukes went to the casino and i won me some money! which is always good lol. then later on Mickey's Father stopped by i haven't seen him since my birthday party which was in december so when he knocked on the door i was shocked! it was sooooo good seeing him he reminds me so much of his son and it just makes me happy being around him, we started talking about mickey and how he use to always walk in my house and the first thing he say is "where jazz at" my sis use to be like ok can we get a hi or something dang! LOL I miss that boy so much i still can't believe its been almost 5 months since he has been gone, i really think about him every single day and everything i do i do it for him and i know he would be so proud of me. we all went out dinner and drinks before we went to the movies to see Death at a funeral on sat. night Mickeys father wanted to treat us which i thought was pretty nice, him and mom has been best friends for years and since me and my sis were 1 yrs. old they use to always take us to the movies and what not and it was good to be around great people and have a nice conversation. sunday i went to church which was so needed, i'm getting closer to him and it feels amazing he is touching my life in so many ways and i have every reason to thank and praise him so i'm trying to get back to going every sunday again. I'm changing in so many ways & it feels good.

ily

2010-04-01T02:13:00.002-04:00

this is my life.

2010-04-01T02:06:00.000-04:00

Hello my loves!!! i have been M.I.A from this blog :-( I honestly have been so busy with school & work that i barely even use my computer unless its to post stuff for my internet course or something half the time i'm on FB from my BlackBerry or whatever.. but i miss you guys i just got finished catching up on everyones blog and what not... life has been very interesting and pretty good my way. just livin' like each day is my last. I'm on spring break as of today or should i say as of yesterday.. so i'm happy about that, i need a break from school but i'm still working everyday except for wk.ends but this coming friday i'm off of work for the first time in two months due to good friday =) so i will be spending the day with mom dukes & my titi at the movies & going to happy hr. for some drinks... I'm debating if i'm going to North Carolina 4/30/10 for one of my close friends/brother Graduation, he's graduating from Johnson C. Smith college with a degree in business!!!!! I'm so happy for him!! but the tickets time wasn't working with me all the times said 6:30 am on sunday but i need to leave sunday night to come back to buffalo because i have class that monday which is my math of dosage class and you can only miss 3 days even though i haven't miss any but i prefer to be in class because we only meet on mondays and i just need to be there... so i'm still trying to figure out if i'm going, i want to because i want to see him graduate and plus my best friend manney lives there and i haven't seen him since last june when i went there for his bday & i miss him so much so it will be good if i do go. i just hate the prices goes up when you put the the requested time for the fight in your self it was like $219 with their times but my requested times went up to like $288 i was like wtf.. thats a big jump & i refuse to pay that much for a wk.end lol. i should of just been purchased my ticket instead of waiting for the last min. but we shall see.. well i hope everyone is doing well!! i love you guys!

God Bless!

2010-03-21T04:05:00.001-04:00

Love Conquers All.

2010-03-16T03:35:00.000-04:00

Her name is Katie Kirkpatrick , 21 yrs old.

Next to her is her fiancé, Nick, 23.

This picture was taken prior to their wedding January 11th, 2005.

Katie has terminal cancer and spends hours in chemotherapy.

Here Nick awaits while she finishes one of the sessions

Even in pain and dealing with her organs shutting down, with the help of morphine, Katie took care of every single part of the wedding planning.

Her dress had to be adjusted several times due to Katie’s constant weight loss.

An expected guest was her oxygen tank. Katie had to use it during the ceremony and reception.

The other couple in this picture is Nick’s parents, very emotional with the wedding and of course to see their son marrying the girl he fell in love with when he was an adolescent.

Katie, in a wheel chair, listening to her husband and friends singing to her

In the middle of the party, Katie had to rest for a bit to catch her breath.

The pain does not allow her to stand for a long period of time.

Katie died 5 days after her wedding.

To see a fragile woman dress as a bride with a beautiful smile makes you think, happiness is always there within reach, no matter how long it lasts.

Excuse me.

2010-03-10T01:53:00.001-05:00

knocking at the door...

2010-03-10T01:44:00.002-05:00

The minute you start enjoying yourself and who you’ve become, when you walk into a room with your head in the air, the minute you wake up and are glad to be you, the possibilities and opportunities will come knocking at your door.

LMFAO

2010-03-10T01:36:00.000-05:00

2010-03-07T19:58:00.002-05:00

update:

2010-03-07T19:53:00.001-05:00

I have been working & going to school so my life is a lil hectic and busy constantly. i be trying to throw in some fun in between all of that.. i met someone but i'm not getting my hopes up too fast because after last night i have been a lil upset with him. he suppose to have a child who is two months and idk why he waited until last night to tell me when he seen me several times, we have been going on date, we txt. all day and we on the phone every single day so he could of slipped the fact that he has a child somewhere in there i'm not mad at the fact he has a child by any means most of these guys in this day in age do but i just wish he would of told me sooner because we have been getting really close but yall should of seen my face when he txted me last night and said " yo jazz i really need to tell you something about me that fucking should of been told you." i just replied with "?" and thats when he said he "may" have a child, he's waiting for the results or whatever to come back so when he said that i started thinking about what my mom asked me a few days ago and everything started making since she was asking me if he ever told me had a baby i'm like no he said nothing like that to me... (he works at the hospital on my mothers floor) and she was like her co-worker who didnt even know me and this guy was talking said he showed him a picture of a lil babygirl and said it was his baby she didnt think nothing of it at the time she just thought her co-worker didnt know what the hell he was talking about, all this was before i found all this stuff out so i have been a lil aggravated about the situation because it's like hes trying to sugar coat the whole thing with me saying "she might be mines" but yet you have a picture of her on your phone.. i just dont like being lied to or mislead so i dont know where this whole thing is even headed now.. he has been calling & txting me all day apologizing and saying he didn't want to tell me because he didn't want to scare me away.... hmmm... so in between hw and studying i have been thinking about this all day.. i talked to my twin about it last night and she was like i understand how you can feel a lil upset about it , but it does show he cares about you because he did tell you and didnt let me find out on my on or later on, i told my mom about it this morning and she was just like "so your not gonna talk to him no-more?" i'm like i'm NOT judging him by him having a child i'm just mad at him not telling me sooner, its like if i had a child i would make sure thats the first thing someone knows about me i guess thats just me... time will tell and we shall see what i will do about this, what do you guys think?... but anyways life is going pretty good just working hard, livin' life and doing what i have to do in order to get to where i need to be..

I hope everyone is doing well. i love you guys....